Scared

How does one feel so blessed
Yet so scared?
How do you move?
When you want to curl up and hibernate?

How do you smile at good wishes?
When all you wish to do is run a mile?

How do you say those three words?
I am scared?

Yet you can also feel some strength
Some feeling that it will be alright
How do you say you are scared?
When you also see this as the opening that it is?

Is it OK if I'm scared but also glad for a fresher start?
When i feel energized to do great things?
Is it ungrateful?

I'm scared
I'm honest about that
Forgive me,
Take not away this blessing from me
I promise to not let the fear rule me.